As an update to last week’s post, my boss confirmed with me that I wasn’t being offered the position. While technically I’m in the running since HR hasn’t sent me the official email to say they have selected another candidate, my boss gave me the courtesy of not making me wait for HR to seal the deal. And so, here I am, posting again about how I didn’t get the job.
Reflections and Learnings
One benefit of this round of interviews is that I was interviewed by my direct boss and one of the managers I support. This means that I have access to much better feedback than what HR can give me. Both bosses have offered to sit down with me and go over their notes from the interview, with specific feedback on how I could do better. They are both invested in my improvement.
My boss mentioned when she told me I wasn’t getting the job that there is still room to redefine my current job. Since then, I’ve been doing a comprehensive deepdive into my job and mapping it out. I pulled my last performance appraisal and am looking over what I do well (my strengths) and identify where I need to improve. This will give me a good lens to look for courses or opportunities to grow and better demonstrate my experinece.
Both bosses commented that I delivered a good presentation. This is good to note, because I can take stock of how I chose to research and present the information. HR sent me links to resources, and one of my bosses said I was the only one to name drop them during my presentatiton and interview, showing I did the work.
The more indepth feedback will help me address one of my interviewing weaknesses – I tend to ramble because I haven’t adequately prepared canned stories that showcase my abilities. With their specific feedback I can reflect and collect stories of how I problem-soved issues, which will help me articulate my value.
While it might be the case that I lost out on the job because I was in competition with a better qualified candidate, I need to remember to always express my value to the employer. I need to answer important questions like “What can I do for the employer? What problems will I address? What money will I save? What opportunities will I exploit?” etc. I will need to reflect more intentionally on what I bring and give it a narrative that tells a story.
Most importantly, I need to prepare so I can have more self-confidence. You can’t sell a product if you don’t believe in it 100%, and I sadly still lack confidence in my value.
As one of the managers and I were chatting afterwards, he said there is a saying in his home country of Romania, which roughly translates to “a swift kick in the butt is still a step forward.” I think this is a good perspective to take.