I took the weekend off to enjoy some family time. I’ll be back next week with a proper post.
I took the weekend off to enjoy some family time. I’ll be back next week with a proper post.
I just got married, so no post this week. I’m away from my desk enjoying my mini-honeymoon.
I’ll catch you next week.
Yesterday I went to a climbing gym with my co-workers for our summer staff party. It’s been at least five years since the last time I tried rock climbing, and over a decade since the last time I actually climbed a rockface.
The experience was interesting. On the one hand, the venue is great, and the staff were awesome. My co-workers were all super supportive, and in no way did I feel like I didn’t belong because of other people. I did, however, felt like I didn’t belong because I’m a 325lbs mass of meat that doesn’t have the greatest cardiovascular system and a nervous suspicion of gravity.
I made two attempts to climb a fairly easy 5.5 wall. The first attempt, I chickened out about a quarter of the way up. A little while later, I made a second attempt and got around 80% of the way up before I stopped, thought about things, and promptly started climbing back down. In other words, I psyched myself out before I reached the top.
I was really bummed out about it afterward, because I knew that if I pushed through the mental barrier and went up the last 5-10 feet, I could have made it. Instead, I saw that I still had a bit to go and felt that I didn’t trust the auto-belay device to support my weight, and the hand-holds near the top would have been tricky to climb back down on. So, instead I decided to turn back and climb down until I was a safe height up from the ground where I could let go and still not injure myself if the auto-belay device didn’t arrest me.
It’s really stupid to let myself succumb to this kind of thinking. I know that the equipment is safe, and I know that I won’t injure myself if I slip. Nevertheless, I let my fear get the best of me, and I turned back before the end.
We can’t win them all. I’ll try to do better next time.
This weekend, I finally unpacked all of our boxes of books. We were having some people over and thought it would be good to ensure the entire main floor was settled, which meant hauling all the books up from the basement and setting the office up. I didn’t have the foresight to count them, but I estimate there were 20-30 big boxes of books that have been tucked away since the move last month.
Even before the move, we had boxed up a few bookcases in order to stage the house for sale, so some books have been in boxes and storage for almost three months. As you can see, we have a lot of books – the natural result of the union of an English major and a Philosophy major.
Humorously, when I started unpacking, I noticed several extra copies of Harry Potter books floating around. After collecting them together in one spot and sorting them, I discovered a lot of duplicates. We had *five* copies of the last two books in the series alone!
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Finished unpacking all the boxes of books. This is what happens when two millennials join libraries – a crap ton of Harry Potter books. Interesting observation: between the two of us, we only have one copy of the Philosopher's Stone. **Edit** – I forgot to include the illustrated version of the Philosopher's Stone that I found on another shelf. Grand total of copies: Philosopher's Stone – *2 Chamber of Secrets – 3 Prisoner of Azkaban – 4 Goblet of Fire – 4 Order of the Phoenix – 3 Half-Blood Prince – 5 Deathly Hallows – 5 #books #fiction #harrypotter #library #libraries #whatsonmyshelf
One side benefit I noticed in unpacking my books is that seeing the shelves full was making me happier as I went along. When I started packing the books up a few months back, I noticed that not having my library on hand was affecting me. I wouldn’t say it made me sad, but not seeing the books while in the office brought the mood down a bit. It’s a hard feeling to articulate. On the one hand, I don’t use the books everyday, so it didn’t impact my day-to-day life. However, having my life and possessions stored away in boxes brought my mood down a bit, and I’ve been feeling it all through the moving experience. Now that we are unpacking and setting up a new life in the new house, I’ve found myself feeling more optimistic, and my outlook feels a little brighter.
Now that the books are all out, the only thing left is to start arranging them on the shelves and pick a theme for sorting. It’s the little things that make me happy.
Last week, I reflected on the WootSuit Youtube channel about finding my voice. There, the point of the video was reflecting on what kind of voice I wanted for the vlog (tone, topics, purpose, intent, delivery, etc.), but the reflection also covered this blog as well.
When I first set up the blog a few years back, it was intended to be an online public-facing journal of my return to school for paramedicine. Then, life happened and I decided to indefinitely shelve that idea, but I kept blog running since I found value in it. The blog forced me to be productive and write regularly every week with the intention of publishing.
Over time, the topics have tended to concentrate of a few areas, mostly related to my professional lives – being a board member and Chair of a non-profit, teaching and learning, personal development, and health/fitness.
Yet, throughout these roughly connected topics, I’ve yet to intentionally create a through line that presents a coherent, meaningful voice. Thankfully I’m not intentionally trying to market myself through this blog because I don’t have the first clue who my audience is beyond myself. That’s not all bad, though. I write for myself and it’s a process of discovery for me. Writing helps me to organize my thoughts as I attempt to articulate them outside of my head in a way that makes sense for someone else.
A consequence of this approach, though, is a haphazard set of reflections and a bit of a scattered voice. Sure, it’s my voice, but it’s not one that I’m satisfied with.
As I said in the video, I don’t yet have a good answer. This post is not intended to be an announcement of some new direction for the site. It’s just a reflection from a person who still doesn’t really have things figured out (yet).
Happy long weekend!
I haven’t posted a reading update since back in February, and since I’m away on vacation for the weekend (with my nose hopefully buried in a book), I thought it would be appropriate to list some of the books I have on the go.
HVAC Handbook by Robert Rosaler
This is undoubtedly an odd one on the list. A few weeks back, our AC unit froze and we decided to replace both of our 30+ year old AC unit and slightly newer furnace in the house. I am not a handy guy by any stretch of the imagination, but I wanted to learn more about how a house’s HVAC system helps to control the indoor environment. I renewed my library card and checked this book out. I have no illusions that I can or should be performing my own repairs, but at least I can appreciate the engineering and design (or sometimes lack of) goes into my house’s climate control.
Interesting Times by Terry Pratchett
This list wouldn’t be complete without a Terry Pratchett book. This book finally brings us back in touch with the Wizzard Rincewind, whom we last saw in Sourcery and was blown away to another dimension. Set in the Counterweight Continent and the Agetean Empire, Rincewind, The Luggage, Twoflower, and Cohen reunite and get thrown in the middle of a peasant rebellion against the oppressive rule of the elite and a plot to murder the Emperor. These are interesting times!
Extreme Ownership by Jocko Willink and Leif Babin
I quite enjoyed Jocko’s later book, Discipline Equals Freedom, so I thought I’d go back to check out his earlier book that is largely the reason why he’s known now. He and Babin are retired Navy SEALS who started a leadership consulting company after they retired from the forces. The book is a distillation of their experiences and the lessons they learned about leadership that they have brought with them to their civilian careers. It’s written, in part, as a no nonsense memoir, and I don’t get the impression that they are trying to waive any patriotic flags about being pro-military or pro-combat.
Madison’s Gift by David O. Stewart
Here’s another audiobook I grabbed from the library thanks to the Hoopla service. While I should probably start reading biographies about figures other than American presidents, this one intrigued me since it’s about James Madison’s partnerships with key people who helped him with his achievements. Rather than celebrating him as a visionary genius, it plays up the fact that he was fairly ordinary and unimpressive (the book’s description of him is “short, plain, balding, neither soldier nor orator, low on charisma and high on intelligence.” Something about the description spoke to me, and I thought I’d check it out.
The Perfectionists by Simon Winchester
I blame the fact that I work in the School of Engineering that I decided to check this book out. The Perfectionists covers the history of precision engineering after the industrial revolution. While the book covers things relatively chronologically, it’s thematically grouped into various stories related to tolerance in measurements. I’m only midway through the book, but the history of engineering design is incredible. The creativity and patience shown by the various craftsmen in areas such as machining by hand, horology, and even lock-picking, is fascinating to learn about, and gives me a greater appreciation for good design (see HVAC above…)
If this was a long weekend for you, I hope you had a great and safe weekend!
I recently took over as Chair of the Board for the non-profit I sit on. So far, I’ve chaired two meetings and I have to admit I feel out of my element. I don’t mean that I’m not able to carry out the job – I seem to be doing alright by the feedback I’m receiving from the other board members.
It’s one thing to sit as a board member and evaluate how a meeting is being run, spotting pieces here and there that could be run more efficiently, or structured different, but it’s an entirely different thing to actually run the show. I think the past Chair did a fantastic job, so when I say there were things that could be more efficient, I don’t mean it as a criticism. What I mean is, when someone else is putting things into motion, it’s easy to see various areas where something could be done better. But when you are the one putting things into motion and steering the ship, you spend so much time keeping things going that you don’t have the time or the mental bandwidth to evaluate things in real time and adjust for efficiency.
Before, I would receive the agenda, figure out where I could contribute to the discussion, show up and sit in as part of the group (which sometimes amounted to sitting back and letting others run the discussion). Now, I make the agenda and set the tone, then I have to be the one to get the discussion rolling. It falls to me to manage the Board’s caseload, and lead any strategic directions we choose to go. In time, it’ll also fall to me to work within my mandate from the Board and start the generative process of strengthening the organization and planning for the future.
Based on these last two meetings, it’s going to be a long time before I’m leading in any meaningful sense of the word. The best way I can describe my performance is managing how much force is getting applied to the flywheel to ensure momentum isn’t lost. When I reflect on my performance, it feels awkward and a little weak (wishy-washy, as opposed to done with a sense of conviction).
My default state is to excessively talk and look to the body language of others to see if they are receptive to what I’m saying. If I sense they are not understanding me, I keep talking and hope that if I throw everything at them, they’ll understand what I’m saying. A friend once likened it to a faucet. Where I should be dialing things back, I instead open the valve and give them a fire hose of information. Of course, this is the opposite of what I should be doing as a leader of a group like this. I should spend less time talking and more time listening to the wisdom of the group.
The good thing is that it’s early in my tenure so there is plenty of time to get more comfortable in the role and learn how to settle into a groove. Like I said, I’m not doing a bad job. The rest of the group is fine with how the last two meetings went. This is merely my critical self-reflection coupled with my desire to do better.